I'm on a new mission..

to find what it is that truly, undoubtedly, and completely makes me happy. I'm in need of some serious soul-searching and I've come to the conclusion that once I figure out what it is that I want out of life, what really motivates me, how I define happiness, success, and fulfillment- I will be able to move past this frustrating part of my life that I've been stuck in. I've done so much in the past 2 years to clear my life and head of the unnecessary, damaging things but I still have a long way to go. I feel like I'm on the verge of a great self-realization.

That's all I'm saying for now because it's late and I'm tired.

Got the Urge to write today..

...and this is what came out (while driving, as scribbled on the back of some work papers)

Another season come and gone
A million lies, a broken song
A ruptured heart left to bleed
A million moments spent on knees
Eyes are pleading for some truth
Lips are moving, loss of youth
Leaves turn brown as Summer fades
Time stands still in yesterdays

Unanswered questions, suspended in air
Unspoken words, never shared
Too many reasons things went wrong
Forcing hearts where they don't belong

Sort through thoughts, too much to grasp
Relive the pain, then let it pass
As time moves on but you stand still
Numb from things you don't want to feel
With aching heart and damaged soul
A jaded view, love took it's toll