Inspiration is coming to me more frequently lately. I've always felt a strong connection to the work of Salvador Dalí but I've recently discovered the entire Surrealism movement and all the things it represents/includes are incredibly appealing to me as well.
For example this is beautiful to me:
"I was born to know you. To give you your name. Freedom." -Paul Eluard ((from Poèsie et Vérité, 1942)
So simple, to the point, yet it says so much.
Reading the book "The Bell Jar" by Sylvia Plath right now. I just started it last night, but I'm already loving it.
Also, totally digging Ellie Goulding right now. Look up her song "This love (will be your downfall)" or "Starry Eyed". Really pretty chill music.
Until I'm feeling like writing again....
Monday, September 6, 2010
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Clarity is something you never take for granted during a period of uncertainty in life...
"Take me, I am the drug; take me, I am hallucinogenic" - Salvador Dali
Ahhhh sweet, sweet, precious clarity. I have missed you. I welcome your presence with open arms and I embrace it.
Continuing on my most recent post, I am feeling extremely enlightened, refreshed, and inspired lately. For the first time in a long time, I am finding the beauty in liberation, and in solitude. Knowing and embracing oneself is one of the most important things a person can do for themselves. It's not until you know know and love yourself that you can be happy with another person. When you begin to lose hold of who that person is or you start to notice that person is hiding, camouflaged in a mix of another person or the person someone else wants you to be, it's an extremely empowering feeling to find your way back. To free yourself of the situation or environment that is negatively affecting you.
I feel awakened. My mind and soul are both things I've forgotten to nurture lately. I spent the afternoon reading and writing (things that I used to love but somehow I've forgotten how to love- which can most likely be atleast partially attributed to my journalism concentration in school) and my lovely afternoon soon became an evening and night of conversation, coffee, books, discussion, music, art... ahhh I love it.
I feel so fortunate to realize and respect the value of self-education. I also feel extremely happy to be so stimulated by creativity and art. I don't know what I would do without it, I really don't. It's getting me through a pretty rough spot right now. I can just immerse myself in books, works, conversation, and I'm free off all of my negativity. The fact that I'm finally, after a several year hiatus, finding my way back to the things I love and actually enjoying them again, tells me something in itself.
I think it's ironic that now that I'm not in school I actually have the desire to educate myself further and learn as many new things as possible. When it's not a grade or a chore, and when it's on my own time and in things that I'm genuinely interested in, it comes so much easier.
Speaking of being inspired, New York, the city that inspires me, drives me to be the best I can be, that makes me come alive you are calling my name, I hope to see you soon.
Ahhhh sweet, sweet, precious clarity. I have missed you. I welcome your presence with open arms and I embrace it.
Continuing on my most recent post, I am feeling extremely enlightened, refreshed, and inspired lately. For the first time in a long time, I am finding the beauty in liberation, and in solitude. Knowing and embracing oneself is one of the most important things a person can do for themselves. It's not until you know know and love yourself that you can be happy with another person. When you begin to lose hold of who that person is or you start to notice that person is hiding, camouflaged in a mix of another person or the person someone else wants you to be, it's an extremely empowering feeling to find your way back. To free yourself of the situation or environment that is negatively affecting you.
I feel awakened. My mind and soul are both things I've forgotten to nurture lately. I spent the afternoon reading and writing (things that I used to love but somehow I've forgotten how to love- which can most likely be atleast partially attributed to my journalism concentration in school) and my lovely afternoon soon became an evening and night of conversation, coffee, books, discussion, music, art... ahhh I love it.
I feel so fortunate to realize and respect the value of self-education. I also feel extremely happy to be so stimulated by creativity and art. I don't know what I would do without it, I really don't. It's getting me through a pretty rough spot right now. I can just immerse myself in books, works, conversation, and I'm free off all of my negativity. The fact that I'm finally, after a several year hiatus, finding my way back to the things I love and actually enjoying them again, tells me something in itself.
I think it's ironic that now that I'm not in school I actually have the desire to educate myself further and learn as many new things as possible. When it's not a grade or a chore, and when it's on my own time and in things that I'm genuinely interested in, it comes so much easier.
Speaking of being inspired, New York, the city that inspires me, drives me to be the best I can be, that makes me come alive you are calling my name, I hope to see you soon.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Some recent insights from the pages of my journal..
There are a lot of things I save for the confidentiality of my (hand-written) journal because I prefer not to put all of my really personal thoughts on such a public platform as a blog. Then there are some things that after writing about them, I feel compelled to share them as is the case right now.
Due to my personal experiences thus far in my 23 years of existence, I've come to realize something very significant- it's when a relationship or chapter of your life ends and through the difficulty and "re-adaptation period", that crucial transition- that you learn the most about yourself. Not only this, but you seem to always grow up and mature significantly. Most times you don't realize it's happening until you reflect back on it, although now, I can feel myself being in that place, and I don't know what I'll come out looking-like on the other side, but I have a feeling I'll really like it. The change isn't sudden, but rather subtle and gradual and a series of emotional highs and lows, realizations (both mini and/or life-changing), questions & answers, and self-reflections. There are moments that are extremely challenging, moments when you feel yourself "relapsing" (for lack of a better description), you feel that the things you're coming to realize are being challenged or are even maybe completely absurd, however, each time you find yourself in that brief moment of clarity, you somehow know everything will be okay.
I've been thinking a lot about choices lately. The choices people make regarding themselves, their lives, how they choose to handle certain situations. What is it that makes one a "good person"? How can you even define "good".. it's completely subjective. What about the way those choices affect you, your life in the long-run, the way you are perceived by others (not that it matters, I just mean if people think you are a good person)?? Pretty heavy stuff, I know, but also the kind of stuff I think is really important to ponder sometimes.
I have such a desire to better myself during this transitional time in my life. I want to learn to treat myself with more respect. Respect my dreams and aspirations, respect my mind, respect my body, respect my freedom, and embrace my potential. I want to feel strong, confident, and powerful. Sometimes I can, but more times it's hard to maintain that feeling, especially in the midst of uncertainty and change.
Maybe it's the fact that I'm sitting on my back porch, on the first "fall-like" night of the year, comfy sweatpants on, candles lit, trying to use the pen in my hand to sort out my clusterfuck of thoughts on a blank sheet of paper so I can better visualize them, organize them, put them into little boxes.
By the way.. totally digging the "Lykke Li" pandora radio station lately.. it's awesome to chill to.. try typing in "Little Bit" (one of her songs) in the search bar and listen to the awesomeness! :)
Things that make me happy in this moment:
-this chilly (but just perfectly refreshing) end-of-summer night
-candles
-music
-the freedom and liberation of being on my own
-artistic/creaitve/progressive/innovative people (specifically Dali as I'm reading a book about him right now!)
-stimulating conversation
-chatting with old friends
-feeling on the verge of something great
-having the world at my fingertips
-comfy sweatpants
-a cup of hot tea
-bubble baths
-catching up with old friends
-the familiarity and comfort of home
-the public library (recently just rediscovered how awesome it is!)
-the fact that my hair is officially long after 3+ years of growing it out!
-the mystery/potential that the future holds
:)
Due to my personal experiences thus far in my 23 years of existence, I've come to realize something very significant- it's when a relationship or chapter of your life ends and through the difficulty and "re-adaptation period", that crucial transition- that you learn the most about yourself. Not only this, but you seem to always grow up and mature significantly. Most times you don't realize it's happening until you reflect back on it, although now, I can feel myself being in that place, and I don't know what I'll come out looking-like on the other side, but I have a feeling I'll really like it. The change isn't sudden, but rather subtle and gradual and a series of emotional highs and lows, realizations (both mini and/or life-changing), questions & answers, and self-reflections. There are moments that are extremely challenging, moments when you feel yourself "relapsing" (for lack of a better description), you feel that the things you're coming to realize are being challenged or are even maybe completely absurd, however, each time you find yourself in that brief moment of clarity, you somehow know everything will be okay.
I've been thinking a lot about choices lately. The choices people make regarding themselves, their lives, how they choose to handle certain situations. What is it that makes one a "good person"? How can you even define "good".. it's completely subjective. What about the way those choices affect you, your life in the long-run, the way you are perceived by others (not that it matters, I just mean if people think you are a good person)?? Pretty heavy stuff, I know, but also the kind of stuff I think is really important to ponder sometimes.
I have such a desire to better myself during this transitional time in my life. I want to learn to treat myself with more respect. Respect my dreams and aspirations, respect my mind, respect my body, respect my freedom, and embrace my potential. I want to feel strong, confident, and powerful. Sometimes I can, but more times it's hard to maintain that feeling, especially in the midst of uncertainty and change.
Maybe it's the fact that I'm sitting on my back porch, on the first "fall-like" night of the year, comfy sweatpants on, candles lit, trying to use the pen in my hand to sort out my clusterfuck of thoughts on a blank sheet of paper so I can better visualize them, organize them, put them into little boxes.
By the way.. totally digging the "Lykke Li" pandora radio station lately.. it's awesome to chill to.. try typing in "Little Bit" (one of her songs) in the search bar and listen to the awesomeness! :)
Things that make me happy in this moment:
-this chilly (but just perfectly refreshing) end-of-summer night
-candles
-music
-the freedom and liberation of being on my own
-artistic/creaitve/progressive/innovative people (specifically Dali as I'm reading a book about him right now!)
-stimulating conversation
-chatting with old friends
-feeling on the verge of something great
-having the world at my fingertips
-comfy sweatpants
-a cup of hot tea
-bubble baths
-catching up with old friends
-the familiarity and comfort of home
-the public library (recently just rediscovered how awesome it is!)
-the fact that my hair is officially long after 3+ years of growing it out!
-the mystery/potential that the future holds
:)
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