Clarity is something you never take for granted during a period of uncertainty in life...

"Take me, I am the drug; take me, I am hallucinogenic" - Salvador Dali

Ahhhh sweet, sweet, precious clarity. I have missed you. I welcome your presence with open arms and I embrace it.

Continuing on my most recent post, I am feeling extremely enlightened, refreshed, and inspired lately. For the first time in a long time, I am finding the beauty in liberation, and in solitude. Knowing and embracing oneself is one of the most important things a person can do for themselves. It's not until you know know and love yourself that you can be happy with another person. When you begin to lose hold of who that person is or you start to notice that person is hiding, camouflaged in a mix of another person or the person someone else wants you to be, it's an extremely empowering feeling to find your way back. To free yourself of the situation or environment that is negatively affecting you.

I feel awakened. My mind and soul are both things I've forgotten to nurture lately. I spent the afternoon reading and writing (things that I used to love but somehow I've forgotten how to love- which can most likely be atleast partially attributed to my journalism concentration in school) and my lovely afternoon soon became an evening and night of conversation, coffee, books, discussion, music, art... ahhh I love it.

I feel so fortunate to realize and respect the value of self-education. I also feel extremely happy to be so stimulated by creativity and art. I don't know what I would do without it, I really don't. It's getting me through a pretty rough spot right now. I can just immerse myself in books, works, conversation, and I'm free off all of my negativity. The fact that I'm finally, after a several year hiatus, finding my way back to the things I love and actually enjoying them again, tells me something in itself.

I think it's ironic that now that I'm not in school I actually have the desire to educate myself further and learn as many new things as possible. When it's not a grade or a chore, and when it's on my own time and in things that I'm genuinely interested in, it comes so much easier.

Speaking of being inspired, New York, the city that inspires me, drives me to be the best I can be, that makes me come alive you are calling my name, I hope to see you soon.