Back to You

My blog is officially 90% song lyrics... what can I say? I love music, sorry! :)

John Mayer "Back to You"

Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I try to forget you
I try to stay away
But it's too late

Over you
I'm never over
Over you
There's something about
It's just the way you move
The way you move me

Yeah, I'm so good at forgetting
And I quit every game I played
But forgive me love
I can't turn and walk away

Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I walk with your shadow
I'm sleeping in my bed with your silhouette

Yeah, should have smiled in that picture
If it's the last that I'll see of you
It's the least that you
Could not do

Oh, I will
Leave the light on,
I'll never give up on you,
Leave the light on,
For me too, for me too

Yeah...

Back to me
I know that it comes
Back to me
Doesn't it scare you
Your will is not as strong
As it used to be


Lyrics can always describe any life situation at any given time. I love it!

Equality for everyone

Today, the California Supreme Court made the ruling to uphold the ridiculous prop8 legislation, which bans gay marriage. I usually do not like voicing my "political" opinions but I don't even consider this a "political" issue because it has NOTHING to do with politics.

Let me preface this by saying, although I respect everyone's values and beliefs, I feel the need to voice my own b/c this is one current issue that I have a very strong opinion on.

I'm so frustrated b/c I felt that our country was finally moving in the right direction when it comes to equality and people's (and by that I mean EVERYONE'S) rights. I don't understand how people can be so ignorant and close-minded. There are of course, religious beliefs but what happened to the separation of church and state? B/c I think in the case of Gay Marriage, that line has become extremely blurred.

If you look back on the history of our country, every rights movement has resulted in a positive outcome. The civil rights movement, women's rights etc. have all caused controversy (and in some cases still do) but in the end was integration a good thing for our country? Absolutely. My point in all this being: just because someone is different than you, does NOT mean they don't deserve the same rights as you and I. People don't choose to be gay, I mean come on, would you ever want a life of ridicule, prejudice, and stereotyping? No. If two people love each other and are committed to one another, they deserve the right to say their vows and commit to one another in the form of marriage.

After living in Europe for some time, I've seen how liberal thinking and acceptance of others can really have a positive affect on a country and it's people. Where as the US spends a countless amount of time and energy on topics such as gay marriage, countries in other parts of the world don't even make it an issue, and everything is going great for them. There are WAY more important issues like the environment, education, and healthcare so why the hell would we even make Gay Marriage a big deal??

Ughhhh I'm sorry I am so incredibly mad and sad right now. I have friends and several people who are important to me that could be affected by this, and I think it's time that America wakes the hell up and realizes that this issue is not going away anytime soon, and it's just going to keep being fought against until everyone gets the rights they deserve as a human and a US citizen.

I hope prop8 goes to hell, I hate it! Whether you are gay/straight/bisexual/transgender/black/white/red/yellow/whatever, you deserve the same rights as everyone else. Don't give up the fight!

UGHHHHHHHHHHH F**K U California Supreme Court!

Just Another Manic Monday..

I'm about to go back to work since I picked up and I'm working a double today (booooo!) but I'm currently listening to DMB's new album on pandora and it's amazing of course. My favorites so far are Lying in the Hands of God, Spaceman, Time Bomb, and My Baby Blue. Check it out!!! Yayyyyy DAVE!!! http://www.pandora.com/davematthewsband


Here's some lyrics from DMB's "My Baby Blue"....

Confess your kiss still knocks me off my legs
The first time I saw you was like a punch right through my chest
And I will forever cuz you'll forever be
My one true broken heart pieces inside me

Happy Memorial Day! :) xx

I really hate being a girl sometimes!

FOR REAL. Why did we have to be the gender blessed with wack emotions and hormones?? I wish for once I could think with my damn head instead of my heart! I wish I could just wake up one day and not care about shit like guys can.

Anywayssssss.....

I have not been this exhausted since idk when... had a great bday weekend tho!! Greensboro was a lot of fun and I was so happy everyone that came was able to! I've decided I'm officially over my fear of being a horrible dancer because dancing your heart out is SO MUCH FUN! :)

In other news... I'm currently working on some projects with music that I'm realllllyyyy excited about! I'm gonna be helping my friend Fred do some marketing/promo/booking stuff with his band 2nd revolution. They're a really awesome band from Winston-Salem that has great potential, and I'm really pumped about working with them. If you wanna hear them, check out their myspace.... http://www.myspace.com/2ndrev. :)

Speaking of music, here's a song I listened to today and can relate to at this very moment... It's called "Sooner Than Later" and it's by Drake. (ps. if you like him, he's coming to Charlotte June 5?? I think that's the date!)

"Sooner Than Later"

I forgot to call to you on your birthday
you swear your the last thing on my mind (yeaa)
there is nothing I can do to fix it (fix it)
all you ever asked me for was time
when the lights don’t glow the same way that they use to
and I finally get a moment to myself
I will realize you were everything I’m missing
and you tell me your in love with someone else

so can you do me a favor if I pull it together
make it sooner than later we won’t be here forever
and I realize I waited to know
but please don’t move on

you don’t need (no one else)
you don’t need no one eeeeeeelsssseee
you don’t need no one else
you don’t need one eeeeeelsssse ohhhhh
you don’t need (no one else)

you just changed your hair and it looks perfect
wish I was the first to let you know
every chance I get to make it better
I just find a way to let it go
when the lights don’t glow the same way that they use to
and I finally get a moment to myself
I will realize you were everything I’m missing
and you tell me your in love with someone else

the girl or the world
you see someone gotta lose
I thought I could have it all
do I really gotta choose
what good is all the cash
if it doesn’t buy time
and what good is famous
if I’m never on your mind
nights fallen light glowing
and I’m just tryna pay the price owing
and I don’t wanna feel the comfort from my ice showing
and I ain’t tryna be without you at the right moments
nigga nice goin
is it worth it
that decision
cuz hearts break and I ain’t tryna be in that collision
so I’ma dust my shirt
and fix my pants
cuz I better look good girl
if this my chance I swear

I have an addiction..

to facebook. it's disgusting. I mean I don't understand what it is that entertains me for minutes (okay not gonna lie.. sometimes hours) on end. it's 3:15 and what have I been doing instead of sleeping like normal people/cleaning my room b/c it's disgusting? facebooking. pathetic.

but hey... my bday is tomorrow so I can do whatever I want! :)

by the way... has anyone else seen the lineup for Austin City Limits this year??? SICKKKKKK I'm so sad I won't be here for it, b/c I would def. spend the $850 on a ticket. YIKES! But I mean come on-- Kings Of Leon, DMB, Pearl Jam, Ben Harper, Citizen Cope, Beastie Boys, John Legend, Michael Franti and Spearhead, Girltalk, State Radio.... if you don't believe me, check it out for yourself! http://2009.aclfestival.com/

ps. I started looking up grad school programs at Texas State and Univ. of Texas tonight... I may or may not be leaning towards grad school when I return from my year long love affair with Spain. Who knows where life will take me? I blow where the wind (and my spontaneous thought process) takes me.

Gboro Friday night for my bday with a couple of friends. Riding in the Ford Windstar like 9 deep courtesy of my little sister/brother. YESSSSSSSSSSSS <3333

The Beginning

So I need some sort of creative outlet and I'm resorting to this-- an online blog. Never thought I'd actually have one and keep up with it so we'll see how it goes.

Everything in my life is finally coming together for the first time in awhile and I'm so happy! I've been accepted to teach English in Spain for a year and I leave the last week of September (I think?). I was really worried about the decision I was going to have to make after graduation.. whether I should "be responsible" and try to find a job, start my career, etc. etc. vs. going to Spain if I was actually, by some miraculous chance, accepted to receive this grant in Spain. I was dreading the decision, but when I got the email last Friday right before graduation, the decision was all of the sudden really obvious and easy. There's no way in hell I could pass up such an awesome opportunity. A year from now, I'll be fluent in Spanish and will have a year more of international experience, which in my opinion, is some of the most valuable experience a person can have. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Okay, sorry, I'll take a deep breath.

But the point of that whole last paragraph was to explain my other reason for starting a blog, to chronicle the next year of my life (and who knows? maybe even more). This way, people like my Aunt Mary can live vicariously through me!

I'll leave you with lyrics from a random song I found the other day, but I absolutely love this quote, it describes the way I feel!

Off I go.
Where I fall.
Is where I land.

Loose ends tangle down
And then take flight
But never tie us down
And never tie us down.




Peace.Love.Happiness :)